Sunday, June 24, 2012

My first night alone

Spent the first night alone in my new apartment last night. I slept pretty good. Besides, this is what I've been working towards. Having everything to myself. Sharing nothing with shared financial obligations. Everything all to myself. Its weird being alone but I'm not lonely.

Last night, i took a nice bath with a glass of wine while listening to Beethoven, which echoed wonderfully between my hardwood floors and high ceilings, then watched a movie....all alone and it was wonderful. Looking forward to this. No one to answer to because there's no one to or that can question what I do. Not only does absolute financial independence feel good but so does stable emotional and mental independence.

Pictures of my new apt after complete decorations coming be cont'd

Tuesday, June 19, 2012


Just signed my I'm just sitting here taking it all in.

Saturday, June 16, 2012

This just in...

Just ordered this bistro set and Flokati rug for my new apt! I'm so excited.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Hi all,

I know, I know, I've totally neglected this blog. I hope everyone is doing well. I'm going to take the time tonight, hopefully, and look through some of your blogs to see what I've missed. I follow some people with great style and I miss it. I've been unbelievably busy. Working 10 shifts in 5 days, continued education stuff, trying to get things straightened out with my ID theft situation, moving....soooo much. I literally have to make time to sleep. *sigh* adult life 'tis the life of an adult.

I took the studio apt! I'm so excited. It's beautiful and just my style. I should be moving in the next couple of weeks. Payed my deposit and I'm collecting things here and there to decorate (via the thrift store of course.)

Still single now. Not dating per se. Just friends with a couple people. I've been thinking about something seriously. As much as I'm adamant about LGBTQ equality, I'm thinking about dropping the "lesbian" label. Let me explain.

I love and date women and women only but there's a lot of things that come with the label "lesbian." There is inequality within the same minority that fights for equality. Even within the LGBTQ community, there are, unfortunately, rules to being a lesbian. I hate that. As much as we fight against the rules of society, we seem to create them within our own community which disgusts me. I want to be labels, no rulebook to being a lesbian, no dresscode or code of "ethics"..etc etc. I want to dress how I want to dress, whether it's extremely feminine or boyish, without my sexuality or femininity being policed. I want to love who I want to love and be attracted to whoever I'm attracted to without being told that that's the "wrong" way in the lesbian handbook.

There's so much more than ppl understand. Don't get me wrong, I'm still very much a part of the LGBTQ community but the labelling, I can do without. Anyway, I'm still considering. I don't want to make a decision based off of how I'm feeling right now without fully understanding how I feel and what I think that could drastically change my life.

As usual be cont'd. Chao for now loves :~)
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